4 Months...What!!!!

FOUR MONTHS have past and 15 days. It's been a while since me last post, eh? Well, only the bold-hearted dreamers with such imaginations that allow idealistic mumbojumbo to occur within the brain will believe where I've been and what I've done. I hardly believe the dream myself. It all started January 10th as I met 24 other College students at JFK to depart for Cairo, Egypt. Thus began a great adventure...
Now I'm back plus 15 days and trying to wrap my mind around what I have just been doing. What happened between the the ... and now is becoming my greatest burden and greatest memory. In many ways, it changed me. In many ways, my world is fallen and in pieces. There are so many, I hardly know where to begin piecing it all back together. I guess I'll start with the corners and edges (as a puzzle)...(i.e. WHAT DO I KNOW AS DEFINATIVE TRUTH, WHAT DO I LOVE ABOUT LIFE, AND WHAT MAKES ME WHO I AM?) These might be somewhat easier to handle when compared to the ones taking over my mind: Why am I a Christian? What does being a Christian really mean (practically and in my heart)? How is it (Atonement...) the world is saved? Where do I go from here?...there are countless more. It is good to step back away from self and life itself to dream and reflect...but what about when you don't know how to get back into yourself or back into life? That's where I'm at.
In the mean time...life goes on and most of my fuss is done in my mind...sometimes bringing tears, but just the fact that it does go on makes me realize life isn't all about questions and pain. I still laught (quite a bit actually and mostly at myself). I'm quite funny! I'm out of words so another time..